Which side of glory ?
People tell me my future is bright. Got a good degree, found a cushy job, working towards a specialist degree that promises good returns ...
I tell myself I am happy with where I am and what I do. I had worked hard (looking back, it's been close to 20 years of studying) to get where I am now. I enjoy working with people and doing my research work. The future seems so promising.
And yet there is this nagging dissatisfaction and discontent in my heart. A reminder of a calling more than 10 years ago. It had remained dormant all these years, and now is getting stronger, louder, persistent.
Why now ? I ask. Why not earlier when I had little to lose ? Why not later when I will have accomplished more ? Why now ? When I have so much at stake ?
Someone told me yesterday - But He gave His all for you.
I cried buckets a few days ago, kneeling at the foot of my bed, wrestling with myself, and Him. On which side of glory do I stand ? What will I choose ?
I cannot see the city at the end of the road. And yet I am called to begin the journey. Will I have enough for the trip ? Will my future still be bright ?
Will I pick the chaff or the gold ?
Which side of glory ?
I tell myself I am happy with where I am and what I do. I had worked hard (looking back, it's been close to 20 years of studying) to get where I am now. I enjoy working with people and doing my research work. The future seems so promising.
And yet there is this nagging dissatisfaction and discontent in my heart. A reminder of a calling more than 10 years ago. It had remained dormant all these years, and now is getting stronger, louder, persistent.
Why now ? I ask. Why not earlier when I had little to lose ? Why not later when I will have accomplished more ? Why now ? When I have so much at stake ?
Someone told me yesterday - But He gave His all for you.
I cried buckets a few days ago, kneeling at the foot of my bed, wrestling with myself, and Him. On which side of glory do I stand ? What will I choose ?
I cannot see the city at the end of the road. And yet I am called to begin the journey. Will I have enough for the trip ? Will my future still be bright ?
Will I pick the chaff or the gold ?
Which side of glory ?
1 Comments:
hey brother, God has been preparing you all this while. you may have a lot at stake but He has always been gracious.
you are still not married (hence more mobile), and you don't have a car or house (hence lesser loans to worry about). your conterparts would probaby have one (if not, all three, additional worries.
God is paving the way ahead of you.... it's like going on a tightrope. your legs will wobble when you look down, but it makes work easier when you look up.
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