Emotions
It's been almost a month since I last wrote. Things seem to be gradually falling in place, and there is some clarity and light at the end of the tunnel.
Yet I am a mixed bag of emotions - the excitement is interspersed with apprehension, and the anticipation is waylaid sometimes by occasional doubt.
Leaving my current comfort zone means leaving behind that which I have grown accustomed to for the last 3 years. The freedom I have now will give way to yet another aspect of freedom - giving up some rights in order to attain other rights - all these bring a sense of discomfort and tension, but yet there is a deep sense of the necessary.
A different phase of preparation. A different plane of experience.
Different yet the same. That sense of trust and abandon to the will of the Father must remain.
A different path perhaps. But the same companion.
Yet I am a mixed bag of emotions - the excitement is interspersed with apprehension, and the anticipation is waylaid sometimes by occasional doubt.
Leaving my current comfort zone means leaving behind that which I have grown accustomed to for the last 3 years. The freedom I have now will give way to yet another aspect of freedom - giving up some rights in order to attain other rights - all these bring a sense of discomfort and tension, but yet there is a deep sense of the necessary.
A different phase of preparation. A different plane of experience.
Different yet the same. That sense of trust and abandon to the will of the Father must remain.
A different path perhaps. But the same companion.
