The Garden, the Cross and the Spirit

It will certainly be a challenge to pen down the developments of the last few years into this entry. Much has happened, and I have certainly grown in more ways than one. Looking back, I am amazed at how Father has opened doors and caused favour to rest upon me despite my not deserving it. I have been raised and promoted beyond my expectations, and definitely beyond my qualifications or capabilities; and yet I marvel at the grace that is abundantly poured and the expansions that are extensively wrought. It has not been a bed of roses though. Even though I have seen the hand of Father, I must admit that I have, in many times and situations, attempted to bring things to pass in my own time and manner. And I thank Him with all my heart that He has constantly stayed my hand, and steered my path. I remember that fateful morning sometime last year when my path to church was literally steered away into another congregation, just so that I could hear the voice saying - "Are you done yet with my people?" The last sermon I gave in church has impacted me in a manner deeper than I could imagine. I never thought I would be encountered beyond the delivery of the message, but this time round, it seems the very question I posed has bounced back at me in font sizes I cannot ignore and in decibels I cannot silence - "what does God require of you today?" Perhaps it is about time I returned to the garden for a protracted time of struggling... A struggling once again to discern the will of Father for the next season. The words of Bishop Solomon still rings clear in my mind - "one day, He will bring you full circle". That familiar stirring in the heart and spirit is hard to ignore. On the one hand, there is an apprehension of what lies ahead; on e other hand, there is that deep seated excitement of precisely what lies ahead! Such a paradox. And yet such an assurance! The sea appears to be parting again, and the cloud appears to be lifting again. Will I be as Abraham in obeying to move? Will I be as Moses in obeying to lead? Will I be as Jesus in obeying to die? Father, help me in my unbelief! Help me do what You require of me today.